Dear Matilda Mae
I only met you twice, yet I feel like I know you so well. Those beautiful big brown eyes and chubby little cheeks. Your mummy came to see me when she was pregnant at the Baby Show. She bought some Mamascarves to use when she fed you. She was glowing, tired from walking around the show yet still glowing and smiley I liked her immediately. We stayed in contact after that. The next time I met you, your mummy was carrying you in a sling and came to see me at another show. You were snuggled up close to her and were beautifully modelling one of my Snoodies. You melted my heart.
I can vividly remember the day that I found out. You were going to be my model that week. I had been driving back from a weekend away and thinking about you, about our photo shoot. I had been speaking to your mummy on the phone, I was coming to your house, we had planned your outfits, the background, everything. The photographer was booked. We were very excited. I had clothes laid out for you, I had planned to bring flowers and cake for your mummy.
When I saw the news on Twitter I could not believe it. This could not be true. It was true. You were gone.
Your funeral was the saddest day of my life. Seeing your tiny coffin, watching the video that your mummy and daddy had made. It was all so wrong that this should be happening, yet such a beautiful service.
Your mummy is amazing. She doesn’t think so but she is. She has spent the last year raising money for SIDS’s and is determined that something positive comes from this tragedy. In her beautiful words she is helping other mummies and daddies who have lost their babies. She is a determined, strong lady and you would be very proud of her. You have touched the lives of so many people because of your mummy.
Matilda Mae, I will always think of you as my beautiful model.